Descent into Madness

September 23, 2013 § 4 Comments

Things are starting to get a little crazy. It’s to the point where almost everything is on fire and we just need to keep the flames as low as possible while we ride out the semester (and probably the year). Everything is so demanding that we don’t even know what to focus on anymore. Everyone has their own way of doing things, but no one really knows if  what they are doing it is right. Some people read everything on their own and don’t go to lectures, others only go to physio and maybe anatomy lectures, and some go to all the lectures. When it comes to what to focus on when studying at home – I don’t think anyone has a system yet. There is so much advice and so many tips floating around – from teachers, other students, and from people who have passed second year and from those retaking it. In the end, no two people study the same way and we just need to trust that we will make the right choice.

Our anatomy midterm on the brain and spinal cord is next Wednesday and at the level I am at now, I am a sure-fired fail – and I’m not alone. With our weekly double-exam in physio this Thursday, it makes it hard to know what to focus on until then. I decided that I would a little anatomy each day – even if just one topic – just to keep it on my mind. In the first week of school, I’d tried to calculate how many hours should be delegated to each class. When Skjalg saw my “calculation” he told me that I was crazy if I thought I would be able to get in 48 hours of study time in addition to lectures/practicals.

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The result of my trying to figure out how many hours I could study and how to allocate those hours…

I’m a bit on the delusional side when it comes to what I get done and how fast I can do it, so I found an app that will give me a better idea of what I am spending my time on. It is called TimeSheet and it is amazing! I’ve set up my classes as “projects” and can use the app to track how much time I spend studying for each class. I’m a big fan of numbers, at least when it comes to assigning numerical values to things in my life, so this is perfect for me. I’m hoping that it will help me get a better idea of how I spend my time, which tasks I spend the most time on, and most importantly, how long it actually takes to get a task done.

Since I started off this post with a bit of a stressful tone, I’ll close with two great quotes from today. The first was something that Noa, a girl in my group, told me after our anatomy practical this morning. She said that when she was thinking about applying to Semmelweis, she’d asked a girl who’d graduated what she thought about it. The girl told her, “they will do everything they can to break you, but in the end, it is so worth it.” Somehow acknowledging the immensity of the challenge weakened its effect.

The second was something Skjalg shared with me this morning that he’d heard in a movie: stress is only anxiety about the past or fear about the future, it has no meaning in the present.

I also thought I’d share the results of food prep – which ended up being pushed to Sunday – as well as some pictures of what we are studying. Someone out there may appreciate the little glimpse into our student lives and I know I will enjoy looking back at them a few months from now. 😉

Here are some of my anatomy notes – color is my key for keeping myself entertained!

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Posterior blood supply of the brain

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Trying to visualize the subarachnoid cisterns…

Practicing the subarachnoid cisterns with Jannie - great way to spend a Sunday night!

Practicing the subarachnoid cisterns with Jannie – great way to spend a Sunday night!

Trying to visualize the dural venous sinuses

Trying to visualize the dural venous sinuses

Biochem is the neglected child of the three big classes we have this semester. I have been keeping up by preparing for each of the lectures – which is working out really well! The lectures however, are starting to get a bit…heavy.

Furiously written notes from Friday's extra biochem lecture. I had to keep switching pens to keep my notes straight!

Furiously written notes from Friday’s extra biochem lecture. I had to keep switching pens to keep my notes straight!

A little humor to lighten the mood in biochem lecture :)

A little humor to lighten the mood in biochem lecture 🙂

And last, but definitely not least, the big mother – physiology.

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Prepping for this week’s lab on nerve conduction

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Reviewing one of last week’s lectures – on intercellular signalling – for this week’s exam.

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§ 4 Responses to Descent into Madness

  • Antonio Fiorentino says:

    In law school they try to break you the first year. I did not know that Sk was a philosopher. Eat well and get sufficient sleep

  • Shayne says:

    Bianca, Med school gets easier. I’ll just say just hang in there, play out this year and things should get a lot more interesting afterwards. There’s always a way to get through. I hope to be seeing you next year.

    • Buda B says:

      Hi Shayne, thank you for saying that. It’s hard to see the “light at the end of the tunnel” sometimes. I try and remind myself regularly that so many have made it before me, so it’s not impossible. Just need to get comfortable in the fighting position for now 😉

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