How sad and bad and mad it was – but then, how it was sweet!

March 2, 2018 § 5 Comments

Today marks nine years since I moved to Norway. Every year on this day, I take the time to reflect on everything that has happened. On who I was then. On the challenges experienced. On the memories created. And finally, on who I have become. This time nine years ago, a man seated next to me on the plane asked me where I was going and how long I would be there. “Norway. And, I have no idea.”, I’d replied. I remember getting lost in Heathrow during my connection. I remember feeling the most alone I’d ever felt in my life. As the plane passed through the clouds blanketing Oslo, it hit me. There was snow – everywhere – and I hadn’t seen snow in almost a decade. From that point, from that shattering realization that home was no longer a familiar concept, everything changed. I am no longer that clueless, hopeful girl with a one-way ticket.

It’s been quite a while since I wrote. It’s not for lack of caring – or lack of reflection or content – but rather lack of time. The weeks following USMLE Step 1 were extremely tough for me, as can be gathered from my previous post. I was exhausted and felt completely defeated. I set my focus on my trip to the states and any motivation I was able to muster up was funneled into preparing for my final exam in internal medicine (one of the biggest exams of our final year).

On December 13th, on my way home from the gym, I got THE email I’d been waiting for since the moment I’d selected “submit”. At that point, I had absolutely no idea how I was going to react. So, I continued home, where I started cleaning and organizing the apartment. After half an hour or so, Amir called me. It turned out he’d been waiting in my apartment building for the past twenty minutes. The results are released on the Wednesday three weeks after your exam at around 15:00. I’d initially wanted to be alone when I opened the results, but I invited him in and tried distracting myself with cleaning and meaningless conversation. He finally convinced me to stop avoiding it. If you ask him, he’ll tell you that the moment the result loaded on the screen, the look on my face told him I’d failed.

“Oh my god…. I passed.” Pure shock ran through my body.

Allowing him to be there while I got the result was the best decision I could have made. I had been so sure I’d failed, that I genuinely didn’t know how to respond. Having your best friend there in such a moment, celebrating you with such pure excitement, is priceless. It dragged me out of my state of shock and allowed me to start feeling the relief and happiness that one should feel after such an accomplishment.

After that moment, a certain confidence began to set in. Pushing myself through those months of studying, the countless hours spent going through questions and memorizing pathways and tables, had altered my brain. It took all the unfiled knowledge I had packed away in my mind after five years of medical school and put it all into place. It taught me how to think like a doctor. The first time I realized this was on a night shift in internal medicine. As we were running up the stairs to see a patient who had just been admitted to the endocrinology department, my doctor said, “Patient presenting with severe dyspnea and hyperkalemia. How do you treat hyperkalemia? Think about it and tell me when we get there.” Initially, I felt panic. I told myself I didn’t know and began to worry that I would look stupid. But then, I stopped myself. I pushed away the immediate block I’d put up, took a deep breath, and began to think it through. By the time we got there, I was ready.

T: So?

B: Insulin.

T: Good. Another?

B: Mmmm, diuretic?

T: Which one?

B: Loop. Furosemide?

T: Good. And a third? (She gave me the hint that it was an ion)

B: Calcium?

T: Yes. Good.

Had I learned this in pharmacology? Yes. Had I been tested on it in my endocrinology exam? Yes. Was it knowledge easily accessed as a result of studying for school exams? No. Was it knowledge easily accessed as a result of studying for Step 1? Absolutely. Preparing for that exam has made all the difference. It took my mindset from that of a medical student to that of a clinician.

We left for Minneapolis the day after our final exam in internal medicine. What followed was three blissful weeks with my amazing family. I allowed myself a break from everything. After the year I’d had, I wanted to check out and live completely in the moment. I was going to need a rested body and healthy state of mind to tackle what lay ahead.

Sitting at the airport in Amsterdam on our way back to Budapest, Amir asked me how I felt about coming back. At that moment, it felt like I was heading into hell. While studying for Step 1, I’d pushed off everything I possibly could. Coming back meant having to finally deal with everything. My thesis (which I hadn’t started), applying for internships and summer jobs, starting the study process for Step 2 – all on top of my rotations, exams, and teaching.

It’s been a little over a month and a half and now I’m standing at the top of the mountain, looking down at everything I’ve accomplished and all the possible futures that lie ahead. My thesis is finished and my defense is scheduled for next Friday. I’ve submitted applications to the U.K. and Norway. I’ve registered for Step 2. The things that at one time felt so impossible are now just ticked boxes on a checklist.

So, what do I have ahead? Interviews. Step 2. Rotations and rotation exams. Boards.

After that? We’ll just have to wait and see.

Berlin

September 7, 2017 § 4 Comments

The date is set! There’s no turning back now.

Registering for Step 1 is a pretty long process (really a lot of waiting). First, you have to register with ECFMG. Once that is assessed, you are sent an ID number and eligible to apply for a three-month exam window (I chose September to November). Then you need to submit a form to your university, who then has to send it to the US for further processing. That’s where the waiting comes in; I completed my application in mid-June and didn’t receive my scheduling permit until the end of August!

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I already knew that I would be taking my exam at the end of November, but I didn’t know the exact date or location. Amir took his Step 2 exam in Berlin and really loved the city and the testing center, so I decided to follow suit. I’ve been putting off setting the date because….well, there is really isn’t a good reason. Once you set the date, things suddenly become very, very real, and I was probably trying to put that off for a little longer.

I’m extremely nervous for the exam. I want to do well and I have so much going on in my life right now that I’m worried I won’t have enough time to prepare myself. But there is nothing I can do about that. I can only push forward, maximize my time and hope that my best is good enough.

My final exam in surgery is on Tuesday, so I’ve switched over to exam cramming for now. I am so, so thankful that studying for exams doesn’t mean covering an entirely different subject! The surgery exam consists of three topics (out of a possible 168) and we are examined orally by one general surgeon and one trauma surgeon.

That’s all for now! Be nice to me, Berlin…

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Starting over

September 2, 2017 § 8 Comments

I’m struggling to find the words to describe where I am at this point in my life. These past two and a half months have changed me. They’ve forced me to face parts of myself that I either never wanted to face or didn’t know even existed. I’ve had to evolve and grow all while embarking on some of the greatest challenges I have yet to encounter.

I’m in my final year of medical school and the idea that I will be a doctor this time next year is… paralyzing. It’s exciting, yes, but paralyzing at the same time. I’ve spent more than half of my life trying to get to this point and now that it’s finally here, I feel like I don’t know what to do with myself. Knowing that I am about to achieve THE goal leaves me feeling almost empty. Checking that box will mark the end of almost 20 years of doing everything I possibly could to make this happen. It makes me wonder, will anything ever even come close to that?

Since I last wrote, I’ve been re-familiarizing myself with… myself. All while studying for one of the biggest exams I’ll ever take. There have probably been more bad days than good days, but the bad days are becoming fewer and fewer as time passes.

We started sixth-year rotations in the middle of July. My first rotation is surgery, which lasts for about 8-9 weeks. I only have one week left now and will take my final exam on September 12th. I’ve really been struggling with how to balance everything on my plate. I’m planning on taking Step 1 at the end of November and that exam requires EVERYTHING from me. But I can’t give it everything. I have my final exams in surgery and obstetrics and gynecology (not to mention the rotations themselves). I have my thesis. I have teaching. I have applications for next year. It’s…suffocating.

So where am I now? What am I doing? What am I going to do? These are all questions I’ve asked myself almost daily since the beginning of June. If I’m going to be completely honest, this has not been an easy summer for me. Everything I thought I knew about myself, my life and my future changed. My foundation fell out from under me right when I needed it the most. I needed to be the best version of myself and I didn’t know how anymore. So, I slowly started picking up the pieces, forced myself to accept whatever I was able to produce – regardless of how small – and pushed forward.

I turned 30 almost two weeks ago. I really wish I could describe the feeling I had that day. I know that birthday means different things to different people, depending on where they are in their respective lives. For me, it meant everything. It meant saying goodbye to myself. It felt like starting over. Like stripping myself of everything I knew. Complete and absolute vulnerability and, oddly enough, strength. What made the experience even more “life-altering” was the fact that I celebrated it in the historic city of Acre, Israel with my best friend and his family.

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In the days leading up to my birthday, I was in a constant state of reflection. With the way my life has developed, the multiple life paths I’ve entertained, the struggles I’ve endured to get here…it’s not uncommon for me to take a moment and think about where I am versus where I would have been. Whether sitting on the banks of the Danube with a bottle of wine, wandering through the crumbling barracks of Auschwitz, looking out over the fjords from Tåkeheimen, reading the names on the stone plaque beside a Sarajevo rose, or feeling the jasmine scented footprints of Muhammad at the Al-Aqsa mosque in Jerusalem, I always have the same thought: I wasn’t supposed to be here. In that moment, I think about all the points where the course of my life changed, all the decisions and challenges that brought me there and how rich and special my life is as a result. On the eve of my birthday, I stood alone on Amir’s parent’s balcony and watched the sun dip into the sea. As I sipped a glass of wine, I said goodbye to myself as I knew me in my 20’s and reflected on who I will become in my 30’s.

 

 

That trip changed everything. I had a moment in the car on the way to Jerusalem where everything clicked. Suddenly, I could see my future. I saw exactly where I want to be and what I need to do to get there. Every time my future has crossed my mind in the past two years, it’s been followed by absolute nothingness. It’s been a source of anxiety and fear and prevented me from enjoying the present. So when everything clicked, the feeling was indescribable.

Once I’ve worked out some details and made some progress with my plans, I will share them here – I promise.

Otherwise, things aren’t very exciting here. I pretty much only sleep and do practice questions. I’ve been sick since last week and my cough has been pretty extreme. Since I’ve been holed in my apartment studying, I didn’t even notice that I’d lost my voice until I went to the pharmacy to pick up an expectorant. When I opened my mouth to utter the first words I’d spoken aloud in three days, nothing came out. There were a few strange squeaks, followed by a long, intense cough. The pharmacist began to laugh. I laughed and coughed. Exciting stuff.

It’s off to bed for this one! To be continued 😉

 

World, stop.

March 19, 2017 § 4 Comments

This weekend, I finally took some time to breathe. Since I last wrote, I’ve been busy studying for Step 1 of the USMLE (which I’ve been planning to take in June), studying for my classes and enjoying some time with friends and family. Step 1 requires many, many months of dedicated studying and trying to manage that in addition to my normal “life” load has been really difficult – and exhausting! I’ve been waking up every morning at 5:00 am to complete a block in UWorld (the quintessential question bank). After that I work out from 6:00-7:00, go to class and then come home to review my questions from that morning ands study. Each block is 40 questions and reviewing an entire block can take a really, really long time. Sometimes, I’ve even used up to 8 hours reviewing a single block! Each question comes with detailed theory pertaining to the correct answer, as well as information behind each wrong answer. In addition to doing my blocks each morning, I should be reviewing the various subjects. I had planned to cover at least one subject each week. Have I been able to do that? Nope!

In the beginning of March, we visited Krakow with a group of friends. I kept my studying up during that time, but it was not easy! Waking up at 5:00 while everyone was still asleep for a least a couple more hours was…lonely and frustrating.

Outside of that, the trip was amazing! The city has so much history and it was such a unique experience to visit Auschwitz. It’s really something I will never forget.

After we arrived back in Budapest on Sunday evening, I only had a couple of days before my mom and brother arrived (from the US and Oslo, respectively). We haven’t been together – the three of us – in 4 years, so this was an extremely special trip for me. In the beginning of their visit, I tried to balance studying with family time. By that Friday, I gave in. This past month has shown me that I’m not going to be ready for the exam in June. I’m not planning on going back to the states in the immediate future and you can only take the exam one time, so I would rather push the date and take it when I am more prepared. It felt good to check out of my study world for a little bit and fully enjoy time with my family. They mean the world to me.

Their visit was perfection. We tried out new restaurants in Budapest, including an AMAZING new one called Makery where you make your own dinner. You are supplied with prepared ingredients and a fully stocked workstation. Each person chooses their dishes (just like in a normal restaurant) and then follows step-by-step video instructions to make it. Such a cool concept! We also did some escape rooms, had a cocktail night with all of our friends and took a day and a half trip to Vienna.

We even got to celebrate Christian’s 27th birthday on the day! Our friend Amir brought over a bunch of fresh goods from his favorite bakery, which we served alongside a collection of cakes we’d brought back with us from Aida in Vienna. Then we watched Chef (one of my favorite movies, which Christian had never seen before). After that it was shopping on Vaci utca, two escape rooms, drinks at a roof top bar close to the basilica and dinner at Iguana with Dushyant and Amir (including the dogs! My mom’s dog Romeo and our dog Baloo).

My mom and Christian left on Thursday and I spent the rest of the day reviewing for Friday’s anatomy exams. Since I have my own group, I’m a main examiner during midterms. This means that I may be in charge of examining an entire group (other than my own). I like to vary my questions as much as possible, so I try to do a thorough review of all the topics before the exams.

In addition to exam day, Friday was the day of Baloo’s surgeries – yes, surgeries! Technically, there was only one surgery with three parts, but when your dog weighs less than 1.5 kg (3.3 pounds) you worry a bit more! On top of being neutered, he had two baby teeth taken out (some of them have been a bit stubborn) and a suspicious lump on his head removed. Luckily, the lump turned out to be nothing more than a hair follicle that had grown inward! If any of you follow Dr. Pimple Popper, then you’ve seen these before. If you’re curious, check out this compilation video.

I was so thankful for the distraction of examining students for the anatomy midterm during Baloo’s surgery. I was so nervous that something would go wrong! When Skjalg picked him up at 14:00, the vet told him him that everything went smoothy and there were no complications at all! Afterwards, he was a bit loopy, but by Saturday he was almost back to normal and even playing fetch!

​The only problem now is dealing with his cone. Because he is so small, the cone they had that fits him is really hard and narrow. He absolutely hates it. While it’s on he will stand in place for 10 minutes then get tired and try to lay down somewhere (but never really get comfortable). I slept on the floor with him the first night, since he can’t navigate the stairs leading up to the bed in the dark. Last night, we tried putting his jacket/harness thing on instead. He was able to sleep through the night, so hopefully that is enough of a “blocker” for any licking or scratching he might try.

Otherwise, week 8 (already!!) of the semester starts tomorrow. I’m starting with new material for my students, which I will prepare tomorrow morning before my class at 12:00. We are in the middle of our forensics block, so I might start with preparing my notes for our final at the end of the semester. I’m considering October for Step 1, so I will start studying more for my current course load (I’ve ONLY been studying USMLE so far this semester). I’m going to have to sit down tomorrow and make a study plan for the rest of the semester.

 

 

Surgical Olympiad in Moscow

April 25, 2016 § 3 Comments

It’s been a little over a week since we returned from Moscow and I feel as though we’ve only just recovered. In the days that followed our return to Budapest, I think I slept almost 30 hours. It’s a good thing I got that sleep because with exam period only 3 weeks away, there is no time for rest!

The biggest hurdle ahead of us now is pharma. We have a midterm this week, the competition (for those who dare to attempt it) during the last week, and the final exam. Most of us want to get pharma out of the way in the first or second week of the exam period so we can “rest easier” with those that remain. The only problem is that there are nowhere near enough spots for everyone to do that. When we have registration next week (we haven’t been notified about the date yet), things are going to be crazy!

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Now, back to that trip to Moscow!

The Olympiad spanned four days: the first day for registration and training for the microvascular and tracheal intubation events and then three consecutive days of contests within different specialties. This being our first time, we had little idea of what to expect and hence, we decided to participate in all but two of the scheduled events. We later found out that most teams were divided into groups focusing on only one or two events, influenced by their desired future surgical specialty.

We were met at the airport by Prof. Dr. Sergei Dydykin, Head of Department of Regional Anatomy and Experimental Surgery of the 1st Moscow State Medical University, and 4th year medical student and representative of the university’s surgical club, Sergey Mindlin. From that point on, we were guided with the utmost care through our entire stay, including each and every step of the competition. In addition, we were supplied with all the requisite instruments and suturing materials we needed for the contests.IMG_5803

On the first day of the competition, we participated in the desmurgy, surgical knot-tying, tracheal intubation, gynecology, and microvascular repair contests. The day began with an Opening Ceremony where we were introduced to the members of the faculty and the 25 other teams participating in the Olympiad. Of all the teams, we were the smallest – by far! Most of the teams ranged between 10-20 students and some close to 30. While standing in the back and watching the ceremony take place, we noticed quite quickly that we were completely surrounded by students practicing knot-tying – and all of them averaging about 30-50 knots in only 30 seconds. It was at that moment that we realized what we were in for.

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All of of the contests included a case report, simulated clinical situation, lab/imaging findings, tasks and criteria. Various criteria were considering in grading each of the events (depending on the type and various components of the procedure), for example: aesthetics, stenosis, impermeability, teamwork/coordination, time to complete the procedure and theoretical knowledge of the case, and methods and materials used.

Here’s an example of the information we were given for the Abdominal Contest Amir and I did that Saturday.

Abdominal surgery contest

Clinical case: iatrogenic total hepatic duct intersection (before cystic duct joins it, type 1 Bismuth­Strasberg ) during laparoscopic cholecystectomy. 

Task: to reestablish integrity of gastrointestinal tract performing  Roux­en­Y type reconstruction (see fig.1). 

 Requirements

  1. Mobilize the intestine, ligating mesenteric arteries. Perform a stump in the end of the left intestine.  
  2. Perform a hepaticojejunoanastomy applying any preferred kind of hand suturing technique. 
  3. Perform an end­to­side jejunojejunostomy using any preferred kind of hand suturing technique. 
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Time given to complete the task: 70 minutes

  • Suture material provided: Vycril 4/0 ­2 packages, PDS 5/0 – 1 package, Nylon 6 (kapron) for ligatures. 
  • Surgical instruments ARE NOT PROVIDED. You are expected to use your own kit 
  • Usage of surgical staplers is forbidden. 
  • Team: 3 to 4 persons. 
  • Highest possible score – 30. 
  • The received points will be multiplied by a factor (f) according to the formula: f = 25/max points, f=0,833 
  • Material provided – ~ 6 cm long, 5­7 mm wide part of common bile duct, 45 cm long part of jejunum

Skjalg and Tamás represented us in the gynecology contest (where they received almost full marks) and the microvascular repair contest. For the gynecology contest they performed a laparoscopic salpingectomy on a pig uterus. The microvascular contest was divided into two parts: first, an end to side anastomosis on a chicken femoral artery and second, an end to side anastomosis on the iliac artery of a live rat.

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On the second day, Luca, Cintia and I took part in the endovideosurgical contest, Tiago in the trauma contest, and Skjalg and Amir in the coloproctology and cutaneous suture contests. The endovideosurgical portion also consisted of two parts: the first, a laparoscopic gastrostomy on a human stomach using one of two surgical methods (Depage-Janeway or Beck-Carrel-Jianu) and the second, a biliopancreatic bypass on a live, anesthetized pig. In the trauma contest, Tiago performed a four-core suture of an Achilles tendon – which was then tested with a 12-kg weight. Coloproctology consisted of an obstructive resection of a human sigmoid colon with creation of a double-barrel flat colostomy and the cutaneous suture contest of a necrectomy and Z-plasty.

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This was our third day in Moscow and the first day where we had time to actually see a bit of the city. On our list: Red Square!

On the third and final day, there were five total contests that took place simultaneously in one large dissection room. As a result, Cintia, Tiago, Amir and I were perform our urological and abdominal procedures at the same table, at the same time. For the urological contest, Cintia and Tiago performed an orthotopic neobladder procedure in which they made a bladder from a resection of the colon. For the abdominal contest, Amir and I were tasked with a Roux-en-y type reconstruction, which included a hepaticojejunoanastomy and end-to-side jejunojejunostomy, that we had to perform in a 15x15cm styrofoam box. While performing our tasks, we were approached by the judges as well as various students and faculty members who asked questions about our methods and decisions as to what material we’d used and why. It definitely added a whole new level of pressure and I was grateful to be at one table together as a team along with Dr. Székely, Dr. Juhos and our translator/guide Sergey, who was quick to aid us with absolutely anything we needed.

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Throughout the Olympiad we were approached by curious students wondering where we were from, why we chose to study in Hungary and how we ended up competing in Moscow. We’d organized Russian sim cards on our first day and we’re so grateful for the internet access when we found ourselves without a translator and needed google translate to carry on our conversations. It was such an amazing experience to meet fellow medical students and to share in our passion for surgery despite having such varied backgrounds. I was so struck by their drive and motivation and very humbled by the experience as a whole. We did better than expected considering that we’d only had a couple weeks of practice. The organizers of almost every one of the events remarked at how impressed they were with our efforts, especially upon hearing that it was our first time for some of the procedures. All of the students there showed a true love for surgery and the talent and drive necessary to go after it. Some of the teams had so much practice with each other that their procedures looked more like a choreographed dance than a surgical task. There was no need for them to speak because they already knew what the other was thinking and exactly what steps lay ahead.

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The Olympiad ended with a closing ceremony and an after-party at a club that they’d rented out. The ceremony was delayed for a few hours, so we went out for a bit to eat and then home to change and relax for a little bit.

Everything was in Russian (not a surprise by this point) so we weren’t really sure what was going on when the ceremony started. We soon figured out that they were giving awards for each of the events separately and then for the entire competition at the end. The surgery club of the university hosting the event (I.M. Szechenov 1st Moscow State Medical University) won the competition by a landslide. They were so, so impressive in every single one of the events. On top of their skill and preparation, they were in in charge of the Olympiad as a whole. They organized all of the events, invited all the judges, and obtained and prepared everything needed for the contests.

In one of the most heartwarming gestures of my life, we were called to stand in the front of the hall and introduced to everyone. They explained that it was our first time at this event and that it had been our first time attempting some of the procedures. Suddenly people started to stand up, first on the sides and then filling in to the center. It was such a surprise (as can be seen in my face in the first photo) and probably the most memorable part of the trip for me. It was such an amazing feeling to be honored in that way, to be honored and acknowledged for our strength and perseverance, for our venturing into the unknown. For that moment it felt like they’d pushed the competition part of it to the side and were just praising our shared passion.

The experience as a whole was something we will remember forever. It was an honor to represent Semmelweis, to attend as a team of Hungarian and International students, and to gain a glimpse into our futures. We were truly humbled and inspired by every step of the process and will use what we have learned to fuel us in our paths to becoming surgeons. We are so grateful for this opportunity, for the guidance, training and support we received from Dr. Székely and Dr. Juhos, and for the instrumental assistance and kindness of the students and faculty of I.M. Szechenov 1st Moscow State Medical University.

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T-minus 16 hours until Moscow

April 12, 2016 § 7 Comments

This past month or so has sped by faster than I ever could have imagined. With my study plan, my weeks are quite packed (I’m trying to do as much of my exam prep now as possible so that I can take my exams earlier). There have been several presentations and some exams on top of that. Plus an unforgettable 10-day trip to Thailand, followed by participating in the International Carnival at school (which required making 400 servings of cornbread and honey butter). And now: Moscow!

Preparing for this competition has been quite stressful – to say the least. Obtaining a visa, understanding the events, choosing the events to participate in, training for the events, etc. Sometimes I feel like my extracurriculars are twice that of my normal student load.

The competition lasts for four full days. We will be the first ever team to head there, so we’re both excited and nervous – we have absolutely no idea what to expect! For future years, the Department of Surgical Research and Techniques will most likely host an internal competition for those interested in going to to the competition in Moscow (Sechenov First Moscow State Medical University hosts an annual international surgery competition there). So, we are the pilot group!

This is the schedule for those four days:

 

We won’t be participating in all of them. For example, the cardiovascular one looked way too complicated and we wouldn’t have been able to practice it before. Also, there are a theoretical portion and instrument identification portion that are entirely in Russian. Now that I look at it, I think we are participating in all of the ones in the photos except for the cardiovascular and nerve repair teams. Pretty good for a team of only seven who have no idea what they are getting into ;).

After being in Thailand for 10 days and loving the chance to experience new places and a new culture, we’ve been trying to bring that energy back home to Budapest. How? By trying places we’ve never tried before! Sounds a bit silly, I know. But it is so easy to get caught in the same routine of places to go for drinks/dinner with friends, etc. After handing in the applications for our visas to Hello Oroszorzág, we grabbed some lunch at Menza in Liszt Ferenzc tér

Then it was off to plan our training schedule and decide which events we would want to take part in:

After that, we only had a week and a half or so of training ahead of us. We fit in four full training sessions:

Day 1: we tried our hand at intestinal anastomosis using pig intestine. It was so absolutely different from doing sutures on the skin! That is something that seems obvious, but it still surprises you when you are doing it.

Day 2: We worked on some cutaneous sutures, including a Z-plasty. The defect (“cancer” or “necrotic tissue”) is removed and two triangles are cut, switch places and are then sutured to close the hole made in the skin. My triangles weren’t a perfect fit, so my wound edges weren’t too clean, but it was still fun to try!

Day 3: We practiced gastrostomy methods for our “Endovideosurgical” contest. I did these sutures by hand during the practice, but we will do them laparoscopically at the competition. After, we spent a couple hours practicing our laparoscopic sutures in the pelvitrainer lab at school.

Day 4: All of us made our way to the training lab in Herceghalom. They are currently conducting a surgical residency training program there, but we were able to sneak in and use the pelvitrainers when they weren’t practicing on them.

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Here’s my snapchat video from the day. Please excuse my horrible spelling!

When Skjalg and I got home that night, we decided to try making our own pelvitrainer to practice with at home. It ended up being quite the success!

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It’s only the early evening now, but it’s time for me to pack and settle in for whatever sleep I can get. We leave for the airport at 3:00 in the morning and there probably won’t be too much time to rest in Moscow. A lot to do and a lot to see!! We have no idea what lies ahead of us but I am so, so excited. No matter what happens, this has been, is and will be an amazing experience :). I’m so thankful for this opportunity! I’m also really happy to get to know and work with some Hungarian students. It’s about time!
 

7th semester: check!

January 26, 2016 § 1 Comment

We’re just a little over halfway between my last exam and the start of a new semester. In the past week I’ve slept as much as possible (in my best efforts to force away the post-exam period hangover), gone on a weekend trip to Amsterdam with an amazing group of friends and done a Making of a Murderer marathon.

The last couple days before my last exam – pulmonology – were really, really tough. I’ve been going so hard for so long that I was just absolutely, completely depleted. Having to live the same day over and over and over again for weeks is a special kind of torture. Get up, sit down, study, freak out, study, coffee, study, sleep, get up, sit down, study, etc. On the Saturday night before my exam, slow streams of tears began falling from my eyes. I wasn’t scared or stressed or panicking. It was simply because I was so, so tired. The idea of having to push myself further when I felt the way I did was an impossible task in my mind. Luckily, I’ve been through this before and know some tricks to keep pushing forward. On Sunday afternoon, Skjalg sat down with me to do an amazing thing: let me explain each and every single one of the topics to him. We sat for a total of 10-11 hours and actually managed to go through all 55 topics. I don’t think I could have done it otherwise. Sometimes, being alone while you are studying is the worst thing you can do. It lets the crazy take over and slow you down!

I slept about 5 hours before that exam which, if you’ve been following me this exam period, you know is more than twice what I normally get before exams. My friend Andrea and I took an Uber up to the exam. There was a strike against Uber that started that day, so it was a bit of a stressful start to the day. Cabs were parked in the major intersections of the center and the Uber driver couldn’t get to me. Andrea had to fight him to wait for me rather than leaving me behind. Such a dramatic situation!

I’m still not used to being examined in the actual hospital. It’s such a strange feeling to pace back and forth in your suit and heels, muttering your notes under your breath Rain Man style, while sick patients and their families wait nearby. I usually try to stay as out of the way as possible. One thing about Hungarian patients in that they are generally very sweet. I remember after my internal medicine exam last semester, a patient stopped me to ask me how my exam had went. She had such a huge smile on her face and seemed so generally invested in how it had gone (she had seen me reviewing for the 2-3 hours while I was waiting). When I told her it went well, she was so happy and squeezed my hand.

My heart dropped when I read the list with the our names and our assigned examiners. I’d been assigned to the exact examiner I had absolutely hoped not to get. She is…special, to say the least. I don’t know how, but it went really well – which I was so, so happy for! On the way out, I noted that I felt nothing. No relief, no sudden burst of emotion or happiness. In my mind it was just one more down and however many more to go.

I wasn’t able to sleep when I got home, so I watched movies instead. That night, we met up with some friends at this amazing new tapas bar called Vicky Barcelona. After some amazing food and company – and several glasses of sangria – I was finally ready for my post-exam crash. I’m usually a total zombie for a few days after my last exam. I have a tearing headache, my eyes feel swollen and I have no energy to do anything. This weather doesn’t help either!

On Thursday morning, we flew out of Budapest on the 6:00 flight to Amsterdam. The trip was absolutely fantastic! Skjalg and I stayed in a charming boutique hotel along one of the canals while the rest of the group rented a 3-story apartment in the city center. I’ve never been to Amsterdam before and I have to say that I think it is my favorite out of all the cities I’ve ever been to – even in the winter! It feels like a beautiful, giant village, like you’re walking around in one of those miniature Christmas towns (which I love).

We got back early Sunday morning and decided to close out the trip with lunch at Vicky Barcelona. After that it was home to watch a movie and relax. I had no plans on napping (didn’t want to ruin my sleep) but half way through the movie, I feel asleep and didn’t wake up for another three hours!

Yesterday, Stephanie and Amir came over and we did a 12-hour Making of a Murderer marathon. It was cold and grey out, as it has been, so it was a perfect day to stay inside. I made banana bread and corn bread and we munched on some delicious Dutch cheese we brought back from Amsterdam. Life after exams is not bad at all!

I’m still not 100% recovered, so I’m going to call it a night for the blogging. I will make a post about our trip to Amsterdam and another one about my exams (for those of you who are interested in how those were). Now, I’m off to work on some of your emails!

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